Long time no posts
Hey all, it's been a while since I had a post and I just want to appologize. I get busy and then lazy, usually in that order. I have also been suffering from muscle aches lately, I guess from standing so much or something like that. Happy belated independence day to all of you back home, I hope you guys had a good time at the lake or something like that. Ahhhh the lake, you know I used to hate going there sometimes because it was always so hot and humid and stuff like that. Now that I haven't been there in over a year I really miss the place, when I get back home I am going to want to spend a day or two there just to relax and enjoy the peace and quiet. SPI is also high on my list, but just like Tom I am not really sure when or if I will be returning home, it's really tempting to stay here.
Tom said some things on his blog and as he needs to clarify I do as well. He is right about friends, many of them are student's that are willing to help me with things, but really just want to hang around me for endlish practice. This is something you really have to put up with here, however I do go to Vox bar, something Tom doesn't really do very often and especially lately have made a great many western/indo english speaking friends there. Most of them are good people and friendly, because of them I have been having to hang around with chinese people that just want to use me less. Still though out of all the people that call me and want to hang out with me all the time it's hard to spend time with them all.
My place is actually quite clean, I have trashcans around me all the time. It's helping to keep me a little more clean as I am by nature quite messy, I still will not take all the responsability for the mess at Tom's place because wether he admits it or not ... he helped. However I really don't have very much furniture. When I was staying with Stoerm and Tom I had no space, not to mention many of the things Stoerm says to me are Dismissive, Disrespectful, or Commanding. Referring to it as Tom's place when I had lived there the past nine months paying my own rent, it's hard to have space when your sleeping on the couch.
I am not sure what paraphanalia Tom is referring to, but anything personal I keep in my bedroom and he usually doesn't visit my bedroom. Plus there are just certain things that should be left in the closet. I simply don't feel as though I have been treated with very much respect since Stoerm arrived, am I a professional? Of course, a degree doesn't really mean shit when you get down to it. Hell you can buy an accredited degree, my job expects me to look a certain way and do a job a certain way and I do so to the best of my abbilities, I am well liked by the sataff and student's and although it's alot of work sometimes I like what I do. If that's not being a professional I don't know what is. Odviously I have no secrets when it comes to Tom even if I try he always finds out, so I figure I may as well say what I feel. I did however feel quite bad about that post and got rid of it.
In my mind most of our lives our relationship has been very one sided with Tom always being more handsome, smarter, more succesful, and me trying the whole time to make sure he's happy. I have always tried my best to be a good big brother and do the best I can for him, often putting my parents or other relatives second. Have I needed to borrow money occasionally, yes. However, I have always tried my best to pay him back, again putting my parents second many times. Many of the things I have purchased for Tom have been purchased simply because he is my brother and I love him, I don't know how many ways I can show him that. I tried to make good as best I could on my "Free food for a year" promis in return for my english certification, although now that I have moved out it's harder to do so. However, I feel that I more than compensated for the cost of the certification. Any further debts I have with Tom or Stoerm will be settled next month. Will Tom and I be able to bury the hatchet? I'm not sure, I would hope so, if not ... then I don't know what to do. Many of the people Tom and I both know say I should slap him across the face for the way he treats me, but I could never do that. Tom is who I had growing up, we took care of each other. I still plan to take care of him as best I can, he can hate on me and dislike me and distance himself all he wants but there is no way he's going to make me feel any differently. I'll still invite him to dinner or lunch, I'll still invite him to Vox (Iwonder if he knows they have some of the best food I have ever had there now) even though he doesn't want to go. Because I'd be a fucking asshole if I didn't, I don't know how to be good enough for him anymore so I am going to be myself and try my best to take care of myself. I hope to get some furniture this paycheck and have a little house warming party, I hope he'll come. I do live only a block away.
I met a girl, her name is Janice and she's really into me. She's 22 and very cute, however she is vey traditional and starting a relationship with her is proving to be difficult. I am not very into a relationship without the prospect of physical intimacy. Many of you are prolly saying right now that there is more to a relationship than sex, I feel I should point out that the majority of you who are thinking that right now can get laid whenever you want, have lots of sex, then give it up for two or three years and then see if you feel the same way. So yeah I want to sleep with my girlfriend, not right away, but sooner than half a year. I have been very honest with the questions she has asked and the fact that I have had sex at all makes her a little uneasy. She has not asked how many times or with how many women (Thankfully) but it is putting a little crimp on the starting of our relationship. However I do appear to be taking ground, besides it's a chinese girls way to say she is traditional and the become very untraditional :), I will keep everyone posted on how it all goes. I think he cell phone is out of money because I can't reach her.
For at least two more weeks I am a dog owner, Everett is going to bew gone for two months and has decided he doesn't want his dog "Teddy" anymore. I agreed to take him and find a new owner, I have already found another owner but she is out of province for a couple more weeks so I am stuck with him until then. Honestly he is a very sweet, very well mannered little dog. He doesn't make any trouble, or noise for that matter. He shits and pees in the bathroom and when he doesn't he's not hard to clean up after. He doesn't eat much and he'll eat anything, i'd love to keep him, but he's one of these long haired critters that needs groomed every month or even a couple times during the summer. Also I am just not up for the responsability of a pet right now. I'll have Lex when I get back home, perhaps if he had shorter hair I would keep him but eh ... he was a matted mess of dreadlocks when i got him and had to cut alot of his hair off. He came with food and treats so no real money out of my pocket although I do plan to get him groomed before he goes off to his new owners. I'll try and get a video up for you guys. aznyway that's it for now I need to enjoy the rest fo my day off.
I got the videos done
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mukFz7C3MnM this one I have had doen for a while but just forgot about it, it's the second half of the arboretum trip
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0r-cbW4FLw this is the one of the dog, BTW dog is "Go" in chinese.
Tom said some things on his blog and as he needs to clarify I do as well. He is right about friends, many of them are student's that are willing to help me with things, but really just want to hang around me for endlish practice. This is something you really have to put up with here, however I do go to Vox bar, something Tom doesn't really do very often and especially lately have made a great many western/indo english speaking friends there. Most of them are good people and friendly, because of them I have been having to hang around with chinese people that just want to use me less. Still though out of all the people that call me and want to hang out with me all the time it's hard to spend time with them all.
My place is actually quite clean, I have trashcans around me all the time. It's helping to keep me a little more clean as I am by nature quite messy, I still will not take all the responsability for the mess at Tom's place because wether he admits it or not ... he helped. However I really don't have very much furniture. When I was staying with Stoerm and Tom I had no space, not to mention many of the things Stoerm says to me are Dismissive, Disrespectful, or Commanding. Referring to it as Tom's place when I had lived there the past nine months paying my own rent, it's hard to have space when your sleeping on the couch.
I am not sure what paraphanalia Tom is referring to, but anything personal I keep in my bedroom and he usually doesn't visit my bedroom. Plus there are just certain things that should be left in the closet. I simply don't feel as though I have been treated with very much respect since Stoerm arrived, am I a professional? Of course, a degree doesn't really mean shit when you get down to it. Hell you can buy an accredited degree, my job expects me to look a certain way and do a job a certain way and I do so to the best of my abbilities, I am well liked by the sataff and student's and although it's alot of work sometimes I like what I do. If that's not being a professional I don't know what is. Odviously I have no secrets when it comes to Tom even if I try he always finds out, so I figure I may as well say what I feel. I did however feel quite bad about that post and got rid of it.
In my mind most of our lives our relationship has been very one sided with Tom always being more handsome, smarter, more succesful, and me trying the whole time to make sure he's happy. I have always tried my best to be a good big brother and do the best I can for him, often putting my parents or other relatives second. Have I needed to borrow money occasionally, yes. However, I have always tried my best to pay him back, again putting my parents second many times. Many of the things I have purchased for Tom have been purchased simply because he is my brother and I love him, I don't know how many ways I can show him that. I tried to make good as best I could on my "Free food for a year" promis in return for my english certification, although now that I have moved out it's harder to do so. However, I feel that I more than compensated for the cost of the certification. Any further debts I have with Tom or Stoerm will be settled next month. Will Tom and I be able to bury the hatchet? I'm not sure, I would hope so, if not ... then I don't know what to do. Many of the people Tom and I both know say I should slap him across the face for the way he treats me, but I could never do that. Tom is who I had growing up, we took care of each other. I still plan to take care of him as best I can, he can hate on me and dislike me and distance himself all he wants but there is no way he's going to make me feel any differently. I'll still invite him to dinner or lunch, I'll still invite him to Vox (Iwonder if he knows they have some of the best food I have ever had there now) even though he doesn't want to go. Because I'd be a fucking asshole if I didn't, I don't know how to be good enough for him anymore so I am going to be myself and try my best to take care of myself. I hope to get some furniture this paycheck and have a little house warming party, I hope he'll come. I do live only a block away.
I met a girl, her name is Janice and she's really into me. She's 22 and very cute, however she is vey traditional and starting a relationship with her is proving to be difficult. I am not very into a relationship without the prospect of physical intimacy. Many of you are prolly saying right now that there is more to a relationship than sex, I feel I should point out that the majority of you who are thinking that right now can get laid whenever you want, have lots of sex, then give it up for two or three years and then see if you feel the same way. So yeah I want to sleep with my girlfriend, not right away, but sooner than half a year. I have been very honest with the questions she has asked and the fact that I have had sex at all makes her a little uneasy. She has not asked how many times or with how many women (Thankfully) but it is putting a little crimp on the starting of our relationship. However I do appear to be taking ground, besides it's a chinese girls way to say she is traditional and the become very untraditional :), I will keep everyone posted on how it all goes. I think he cell phone is out of money because I can't reach her.
For at least two more weeks I am a dog owner, Everett is going to bew gone for two months and has decided he doesn't want his dog "Teddy" anymore. I agreed to take him and find a new owner, I have already found another owner but she is out of province for a couple more weeks so I am stuck with him until then. Honestly he is a very sweet, very well mannered little dog. He doesn't make any trouble, or noise for that matter. He shits and pees in the bathroom and when he doesn't he's not hard to clean up after. He doesn't eat much and he'll eat anything, i'd love to keep him, but he's one of these long haired critters that needs groomed every month or even a couple times during the summer. Also I am just not up for the responsability of a pet right now. I'll have Lex when I get back home, perhaps if he had shorter hair I would keep him but eh ... he was a matted mess of dreadlocks when i got him and had to cut alot of his hair off. He came with food and treats so no real money out of my pocket although I do plan to get him groomed before he goes off to his new owners. I'll try and get a video up for you guys. aznyway that's it for now I need to enjoy the rest fo my day off.
I got the videos done
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mukFz7C3MnM this one I have had doen for a while but just forgot about it, it's the second half of the arboretum trip
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0r-cbW4FLw this is the one of the dog, BTW dog is "Go" in chinese.
posted by goemonronin at 3:12 AM
1 Comments:
Cute dog. It is hard to get the knots out without cutting them off and then bathing him and keeping him brushed. A lot of work but I bet he is really pretty when he is groomed. Pepper had that problem at times and even the cats. He is lucky you were there to take him in and to find him a home.
Take care,
Linda
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